Your fingers peel back the skin on my chest I try to resist denying you access to my wounded heart I become powerless as my eyes witness You expose my brokenness Going deeper pass my skin, You discover hidden hurts within the crevices  Sealed off from being touched by your love That resist the ruthless trust you ask me for I begin to shake I loose the composure of my face I am naked  I quiver looking for the will to deny you… again. Going deeper still Your eyes within my soul Begin to expose the grip that darkness has had on me I recoil I juxtapose with scripted reasons I refuse to come forth and receive your healing I am weary of running into the sphere of nothingness Wearing a face to hide the pain knawing at me Walking amongst the dead who like me are afraid of trusting you With ruthless abandonment My rationale is getting stale My odor cannot be covered by chanel My smile is forced My eyes open wide Even though I am exhausted of force-feeding people around me lies Acting out What I cannot find within Cause I won’t trust you with ruthless abandonment  Today I make a shift by your grace I no longer resist I chose to rest in the joyous provision of your love I come to understand The beauty of your plans May your purpose astonish me Again and again I trust you ...